Imagination

"I try to see

Try to understand

How you love me

Why you're my man

But, then again, you're not

You belong to no one

Though I still have a lot

I feel as if I own the sun

Well, I used to 

Now I own nothing

But I still belong to you

And I cherish your ring

The ring you threw at me

It put me down

Everything that was to be

Is dirt upon the ground"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Imagination"

Nothing Matters

"My family and friends

Have mostly given up

This can't be the end

But sometimes it feels that way

There are no more blind dates

No more attempts at happiness

I think it's too late

They seem to agree

Nothing matters anymore

Now that you're gone

My world has crashed down

Hopelessly I continue on"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Nothing Matters"

How Did It Turn Out Like This

"How did it turn out like this

How did we fall to pieces

How did it turn out like this

How did our hearts shatter

How did it turn out like this

How did we drift apart

How did it turn out like this

How did our love become heartache

How did it turn out like this

How did hate grow inside

How did it turn out like this

How did our love evaporate"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "How Did It Turn Out Like This"

Don't Waste

"Don't waste

Your life

On Me

If You

Don't Think

That we

Can be"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Don't Waste"

Confusion

"I am so confused
My heart is twisted
Between two men
I missed it
Who is for me
Who's meant to be

I feel bad
Connected
It makes me sad
He gave it all
What if I leave
Will he hate me
Did I deceive"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Confusion"

An End

"For forgivness I beg

On my knees I pray

My breath seems to lag

I gave it all away"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "An End"

Resembles My Insanities

"See this scar?

It resembles my insanities

Resembles how far

I've gone

On my arm

It sits there telling

Of the harm

I brought myself to

See my wrists?

The small red scars

After we kissed

The knife was applied"

~ Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Resembles My Insanities"

Risk Worth Taking

"I thought there was more

More than just words

I thought you cared

Cared about me

I guess we were destined

Destined to fail

I should have seen

Seen all the lies

It's all so hopeless

Hopeless to try"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Risk Worth Taking"

Not Know Or Not Care

"Does he know

I love him so?

Does he care

About the pain I bear?

He's killing me

Does he see?

I'm dying slowly

I'm his wholly

I'm overwhelmed by tears

Accompanied by my fears

In an endless night

I lose the fight"

~Grace Marshall

From poem, "Not Know Or Not Care"

Try Not To Remember

"Drowning faster and faster

Sinking deeper and deeper

I hope he's the one

I hope he's a keeper

You're scared and alone

Praying it won't stay this way

Your heart holds a somber tone

From all your broken dreams"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Try Not To Remember"

Take That Demise

"I feel as if I'm tumbling down

Into a never ending whirlwind

I can't force out a solitary sound

My body rots, starting from within

I close my eyes and feel your touch

Feel your lips and body on mine

Never thought I could feel this much

And forget the passage of time

With you could have my love

Without it being secret

Did this blow come from below or above

Not having you would be my biggest regret"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Take That Demise"

Sorry, It's True

"I didn't want this

I didn't see it

Ever since that kiss

Can't believe you love me

How did you fall

Yet you seem so proud

You stand so tall

Don't you see I'll hurt you"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Sorry, It's True"

The Fight

"Don't tell me any lies

I'd rather know nothing

Than be deceived

And live in a disguise

I'm supposed to believe you

But you are a contradiction

It's like being hot and cold

Denying and believing yes and no

You can't make up your mind

You can't decide anything

You don't know what you want

Inside of you what would I find

You want me to be there

And yet give you space

I feel as if I'm in the lion's mouth

Or deep inside his lair"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem" The Fight"

Sweat and Tears

"I saw you 

Last night

You held me close

And it felt so right

We danced

Around and around

And listened to

Each other's heart pound

Then you kissed me 

Square on the lips

And you wrapped your arms

Around my hips

And you whispered 

Sweet words in my ear

You told me how you love me

And told me not to fear

You held me close

Right up against you

Said how you loved me

And everything I do

And I rested

Securely in your arms

I knew I was safe

I wouldn't come to harm

I saw all this

It was vivid and clear

And then I awoke in my bed

Full of sweat and tears"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Sweat and Tears"

Then You Are Here

"The wind whips my face

Down streams the tears

Then you are here

And all through the years

And somehow when I scream

You are kissing me

And somehow whenever I smile

You are holding me

My eyes break into tears

When I replay sad images

Of me yelling at you

How could I be so mean

Yes, then you are here

I swear you are

And all I can do is cry

Because then you are here"

~Grace Marshall

Poem, "Then You Are Here"

(Please also see my alternate version, "Then You Were There" on this blog.)

Then You Were There

"The wind whipped my face

Tears rolled down it frantically

I wished your hands were there

Cradling it so gently

And somehow when I scream

I swear you're kissing me

And somehow when I smile

I swear you're holding me

My eyes broke out into tears

When I replayed sad images

Of me yelling at you

How could I be so mean

Yet, then you were there

I swear you were

And all I could do was cry

Because then you were there"

Grace Marshall

Poem, "Then You Were There"
(Please also see my alternate version, "Then You Are Here" posting on this blog in two days.)

This Burning

"My heart is burning

My head is churning

On the inside

On the outside

I am turning

Trying not to see you

'Cause I'm yearning

Just to kiss you

And I'm trying

I'm learning

And I just want love

Don't want this burning"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "This Burning"

Try Something New

"I miss you so
It's been too long
You have to know
How I feel

I haven't seen your face
In what feels like ages
In this heartbroken book
My tears fill the pages

Somehow you keep me going
Even while you're not here
You keep my heart beating
But it doesn't stop my tears

I live in hope and misery
Wishing to see you
Wishing we could be
You're always there for me

I've pushed you away countless times
Your heartbreaking look
Fills my mind
As I write these lines

You've never refused me
Warm arms and comfort
No matter how selfish I tend to be
You always say yes to me

I wish I could repay you
Give back a morsel of what I've received
But what could I do
I'm not as good as you"

~Grace Marshall
From my poem, "Try Something New"

Yes Then No

"You are in and out

Saying yes then no

I want to cry and shout

Sometimes you frustrate me so

You cannot decide

You want me then her

This is a roller coaster ride

How do you keep your composure

This is a ride I want to escape

Wanted to get off since it started

Patching my heart with stitches and tape

Now we're together, now we've parted

I want to believe you

But how do I believe it all

You tell me what to believe and do

Sometimes I stand tall and sometimes I fall

I try and believe you love me

Then you say you love her

When someone says love what do you see

For feelings, what is your measure"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Yes Then No"

Why Did You Leave

"What's the deepest pain

I'm not sure I know

I only know my own pain

And it's from loving you so

Why did you leave me

Why did you go

Okay, I guess I see

Okay, I guess I know

It was because of me

Because I did wrong

I knew this would be

We knew it all along

I just didn't want this

I just wasn't thinking

Now I miss your kiss

And my world is sinking"

~Grace Marshall

Poem, "Why Did You Leave"