WITHIN: Never Alone

"There was me and then the truth inside

I knew that it didn't pay to try and hide

For He was there and He always knew

And I tried but none of us can stay true

He would hold me close as I'd cry

When I felt as if I'd die

And I'll never bear the pain alone

For I know I am His own

Though the darkness at times surrounds me

For perfect is something I can't be

And the pain will often be there

Sometimes more than I can bear"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Within: Never Alone"

Sometimes It Just Hurts

"Sometimes it just hurts

Being alive

A slap or a word that's curt

You just want to get away

Just for a while

An hour, a day"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Sometimes It Just Hurts"

Resembles My Insanities

"See this scar?

It resembles my insanities

Resembles how far

I've gone

On my arm

It sits there telling

Of the harm

I brought myself to

See my wrists?

The small red scars

After we kissed

The knife was applied"

~ Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Resembles My Insanities"

Risk Worth Taking

"I thought there was more

More than just words

I thought you cared

Cared about me

I guess we were destined

Destined to fail

I should have seen

Seen all the lies

It's all so hopeless

Hopeless to try"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Risk Worth Taking"

Not Know Or Not Care

"Does he know

I love him so?

Does he care

About the pain I bear?

He's killing me

Does he see?

I'm dying slowly

I'm his wholly

I'm overwhelmed by tears

Accompanied by my fears

In an endless night

I lose the fight"

~Grace Marshall

From poem, "Not Know Or Not Care"

How?

"Why am I like this
My emotions all muddled
I'm a mess
Can't stop
Why

I'm so upset at you
Then long for you
Want your arms
Your touch
Kisses

I have to stop this
These letters I send
But I can't
Have To
Stop"

~Grace Marshall
From my poem, "How?"

Regret

"Don't fall

Don't hurt

Don't regret

Ever regret

Loving me"

~Grace Marshall

From poem, "Regret"

Our Talks

"I say yes and you say no

You say we should stay

I say we should go

I say there is a God

That loves you very much

And you say it's all a façade

You ask me about right

And why I think you're wrong

I try to show you the light

He's everything to me

You don't understand why

I don't know why you can't see"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Our Talks"

You Offered A Song

"You have my heart
You have my tears
You have my life
You have all of my years

You offered a ring
You offered an imagination
You offered  song
You offered a life-long vacation"

~Grace Marshall
From my poem, "You Offered A Song"

Try Not To Remember

"Drowning faster and faster

Sinking deeper and deeper

I hope he's the one

I hope he's a keeper

You're scared and alone

Praying it won't stay this way

Your heart holds a somber tone

From all your broken dreams"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Try Not To Remember"

Take That Demise

"I feel as if I'm tumbling down

Into a never ending whirlwind

I can't force out a solitary sound

My body rots, starting from within

I close my eyes and feel your touch

Feel your lips and body on mine

Never thought I could feel this much

And forget the passage of time

With you could have my love

Without it being secret

Did this blow come from below or above

Not having you would be my biggest regret"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Take That Demise"

Sorry, It's True

"I didn't want this

I didn't see it

Ever since that kiss

Can't believe you love me

How did you fall

Yet you seem so proud

You stand so tall

Don't you see I'll hurt you"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "Sorry, It's True"

The Crown

"Now and again
I think of the sin
That made Him die
For you and I
And I see the tears
And I smell the fear
Taste the blood
Feel the mud"

~Grace Marshall
From my poem, "The Crown"

I Felt It

"I swear I felt it

Something I’ve never felt before

As we danced upon clouds

I just want it more

You bowed on one knee

Just wishing for me

To accept your invitation

And to be free"

~Grace Marshall

From my poem, "I Felt It"